Monday Morning Ramblings

What does Goodbye really mean? The definition is:

Goodbye: Used to express an acknowledgment of parting.

Do we really acknowledge the parting though? Do we ever truly say Goodbye? And do we have to say Goodbye, before we can say Hello? Is that in fact the point of Goodbye, is it an enabler to Hello?

I finally had to say Goodbye last week, to someone that I love with everything I have. I promised, nearly six years ago now, that I would love him for the rest of my life. So saying Goodbye, is not something I thought I would ever have to do. I have said Goodbye to him before and we have not seen each other for four years, so in a way those Goodbyes have been real. But this time, it was a much bigger Goodbye. Somehow he seemed to know that without it, I would never be able to really say Hello.

Does the Goodbye have to happen before the Hello or can a Hello help you finally say Goodbye? I think I would now say after a little experience, for me, things have to be done properly. They have to happen in Goodbye before Hello order, but I am still not sure they always can. A friend of mine who I was talking to about this last night said:

“If you can’t say Goodbye, then you can’t say Hello”

There is a song in there somewhere!! I questioned the statement wondering myself if you ever truly say Goodbye, until you have said Hello. Do certain Hellos allow us to say certain Goodbyes?

I know for me, as much as I told people and myself I was, I have definitely not been ready to say Hello for the last five years. I must apologize to any of the lovely men that I have attempted to date! As much as I have not been ready to say Hello, I am also absolutely certain, that, as much as it was me, that said it all those years ago, I haven’t actually been ready to live by that Goodbye. What does living by a Goodbye really mean?

He asked me to move on, to let myself be happy. A very powerful request from a Goodbye, asking you to allow yourself to say a Hello…

I guess although a bit late, I am finally doing things in order.

So, Goodbye, I love you.

Now, I guess we wait and see who says Hello….